Dream - Sep 10 2024 The dream Started out here (in Texas, current home) everyone (family) was going somewhere and I ended up leaving riding my bike while they were getting ready. Outside of the house was 110 college drive, my childhood home. It was snowing. I always have. Those dreams about walking the highway and crossing it straight to New Brunswick (where I usually used to get illegal drugs) This time it was me asking for help from this “nice” cute guy pulling up in his truck or SUV square shaped and he invited me in. We had fun talking and I said I wanted to tell him something, which was to ask for help about my addiction. but before that I leaned in for a kiss and he got wormy and rejected me looking scared. He asked why I kissed him and I think I said because you’re cute and then he said but I’m not… a man. He looked happy and a little nervous so I kissed him again more passionately, knowing he was trans. He was fine at first and I looked at him after and something happened with him because he got very violent and I was trying to leave but his dad came home and his dad had guns and looked like a trump MAGA guy which I don’t mind but he seemed obsessed and his son the one I kissed kept telling him I hurt him so I tried to reason with his dad. mostly by telling the truth nicely and laughing /joking. I left and the apartment was more like a house it had stairs. I left on foot and kept running and ended up in that same plaza that I end up in, in many dreams - (in my hometown, edison, NJ) with the food places and Indian lady threading place) and then a huge building (was a mall turned into an airport) then I was trying to get out and I ended up in a bedroom (motel or hotel) in the airport I got my stuff quickly I thought the one time that my parents are gonna be so worried about me because they were leaving and I said I’d come. I kept seeing -3 texts on my phone as a banner. I kept running. And running and running I ended up getting on a train and I was in Russia. Then I got to another door came in (thinking it was a place I knew) a motel, I opened my phone and texts were in Russian. I had a new list of contacts and I had to figure it out or I couldn’t get home.
This dream appears to reflect some inner turmoil and struggles you may be experiencing in your waking life. Riding your bike away from your family while they were getting ready may symbolize a desire for independence or a need to break free from certain aspects of your past or family dynamics.
The childhood home at 110 College Drive and the snow in Texas could represent a sense of nostalgia or a longing for simpler times, possibly indicating a desire for security and comfort.
The recurring theme of walking the highway to New Brunswick, associated with illegal drugs in the past, could symbolize a journey toward self-destruction or escapism. Asking for help from the nice guy in his truck may suggest a willingness to seek support, but the rejection and subsequent violence could represent fear of judgment or consequences related to addressing your addiction.
The sudden shift to a familiar plaza in Edison, NJ, may signify feelings of familiarity or a return to your roots, while the mall-turned-airport could symbolize a sense of transition or being stuck in a state of limbo. The recurring countdown of -3 texts on your phone might point to a sense of urgency or impending change that you are trying to escape.
Ending up in Russia and encountering a language barrier on your phone may represent feelings of isolation, confusion, or being lost in unfamiliar territory. The need to figure things out to get home could signify a struggle to find your way back to stability or a sense of belonging.
Overall, this dream could be reflecting inner conflicts, a desire for change, and a need for support and self-discovery as you navigate challenges and uncertainties in your life. It may be a reminder to address any underlying issues or seek help to overcome obstacles and find your way back to a sense of balance and peace.